The inward journey to find trust
This one is about trust. Something all of us know and all of us understand. We have heard the word, read about it, and know what it means. How could this post be different and less jaded than the word itself?
Last two years I have spent time with a lot of people, books, and conversations about self-love, self-awareness, and mindfulness. Today, as I sit down to write this, I realize that while I know these terms, their meaning but still fall short of showing the proof of the wisdom.
The same is with trust. I came to realize what it’s not and what it is. Trust has its roots in self-love, self-awareness, and mindfulness.
Trust is not about others. It’s about yourself. Trust is an inward journey. It’s about having the faith that you can either do it or you cannot. Trust is not grey. Trust and belief are like chicken and egg. So inter-related that one cannot say which comes first. Belief in your journey, successes, and hard work allows you to trust your capability. Belief is the quaint fire burning in the belly that allows you to trust yourself every day when you go out there to face the world.
Trust is not broken by others it’s broken by ourselves. Sometimes when put in an unfamiliar situation or while witnessing a change, we are forced to step out of our comfort zone. When we step out of that zone, we are hit by a storm called- fear. Fear of performance and need for validation. We suddenly want to prove to the external world that the trust we have in our capabilities is not misplaced. Fear takes over and leads us to impatient action, frustration, judgment etc. We also allow fear to breathe in our system through self-talk. The self-talk that is intended to empower now starts to dry up our reserve of confidence and trust in ourselves. It feeds on us like a monster. Trust is broken when we let fear take control.
Trust is not a risk it’s a carefully built foundation that takes time. Trust, when looked at from the lens of self-awareness and self-love is something that we build through experience and time. Trust in ourselves doesn’t come in a day. Its built-on history, capability, belief, learning; all of which is what we earn by living our life and with time. We all progress, however, a lot of us forget to focus on the progress we have made and think more about the slip-ups we have had. The foundation we build is in our hands, it could be trust in what we can do or have done or faith in what we cannot do. Choose which one will take you ahead.
I have often been wary of trusting people. Somewhere harboring a fear inside of me. If I have trust in myself then trusting others won’t be difficult. At the end of the day, I will know, that no matter how ugly a situation might be, how down in the drains I might be, I will get by. The belief that I will be fine comes only when you undertake the inward journey of trusting yourself. When you know your worth, your capability, and yourself as a person. When you love yourself you will know that wearing your heart on your sleeves is just fine. Your resilience comes from self-awareness.
Trust your actions, decisions, and words, and know that no matter what, at the end of it, you will be fine. Take the road that takes you home, clear up the dust that has gathered on all the laurels you won in life and allow them to fill your cup of ‘trust’.
